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Hey peoples...
In my blog I will explain the mishaps of my life. The depths of a thirteen (almost fourteen) year-old mind. I'm going to say everything I think 'blunt and up front'-ly.
Right now it's about 1am where I live; I should be sleeping 'cause I have a final tomorrow, but I'm not sleepy. I am too busy thinking.
Now, I like to believe I'm not your common teenage girl. I take pride in not being it. I like Frank Sinatra, Elvis Costello, Johnny Cash; I listen to Motown, watch "Casablanca" and own classics like "Singing in the Rain" and "Breakfast at Tiffany's".
I read "To Kill a Mockingbird"in 6th grade and I understood all of it. I've read Billy Crystal's "700 Sundays" twice and a bunch of other books.
I solely believe theirs various sides -if not personalities- to who I am. There's the school me; trying to fit in without being trampled on. The actress me; that girl so strong she could say or do anything without any regrets. The writer in me; all my thoughts, heart-chips (not heartbreaks), misfortunes, grievances, moments of happiness, etc. are documented in pen and paper. The musical me; my body craves the music. Scratch that, it NEEDS music as much as acting. I think I have some kind of illness that causes me severe reactions to not acting. I cry, get pissed easily, and suddenly my life becomes a mess.
There's so much about me that I tell people... hoping to hear something back. Well, I guess now I'm saying what I shush.
When I'm scared or feel insecure I read a bit of the Bible and the fall asleep with it in my arms. I wake up with a different kind of strength, like I'm not alone anymore. God is love.
Don't take me wrong, sometimes -most of the times- I love being alone. Just me, my thoughts and music. There is a difference between being alone and lonely and I have learned to deal with them both. I always try to look for the best in people, even when they don't cease to disappoint me. Oh... I am a little dilusional now, so I might regret writing some of this stuff.
So, that's it folks. For now.

Love and Luck,
Nikki



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